We have officially hit the three month mark of waiting. Depending on the time of day you may get two reactions to that news. There are many days were I get caught up in the hustle and bustle of life and can completely not let my mind go there. Other days I want to scream because it seems as no movement is happening. The whole process has certainly slowed down and while it is in the best interest of the children to have it this way , it really just sucks!!
I want to hold my baby girl and introduce her to her big brothers. I want to see her safe and secure, happy and hopeful. I know God's plan is perfect and that all things work for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose but sometimes my sinful nature comes out and I want what I want. And I want her here now. But in those moments when I let myself go there I hear with certainty a hushed whisper that says I loved her first and I have this taken care of, be still my child and know that I am God!
I want to hold my baby girl and introduce her to her big brothers. I want to see her safe and secure, happy and hopeful. I know God's plan is perfect and that all things work for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose but sometimes my sinful nature comes out and I want what I want. And I want her here now. But in those moments when I let myself go there I hear with certainty a hushed whisper that says I loved her first and I have this taken care of, be still my child and know that I am God!
